She is a long-time dear friend that I've known since elementary school. She was my soul mate, my other half. We believed we actually shared the same soul but separated in two different bodies. We were inseparable throughout the years of our school days. And then came college. We went to different campus. We met new people. New friends. And next thing I knew we were going separate ways. We grew apart. We suddenly liked different things and only had few things in common. And we used to have everything in common. And I mean everything.
Frekuensi "ngopi2 wajib" berkurang drastis. Curhat2 panjang dan catch up di telfon jadi mulai susah dilakukan. Semua yang tadinya "selalu" dan "wajib" pelan-pelan digantikan dengan "jarang" dan "gak pernah lagi". Partly, I blame my campus that is located so far away, her demanding boyfriends, my lack of driving skill, her abnon activities, my part time job, her new girlfriends, etc, etc.. But really, there was no one or nothing to blame. Tapi, bukannya kita jadi musuhan atau tidak bertemu sama sekali. We would occasionally bumped into each other somewhere. Cipika cipiki, catch up sebentar, lalu cipika cipiki pamitan karna mulai panik kehabisan bahan pembicaraan. Lalu kami juga masih sms-an, at least pada bulan april dan agustus (our birthday months). Hmm not so much talking on the phone, though. There are no more zsa zsa zsu left in us.
Sedih juga kalo dipikir-pikir memang. Tapi memang tidak ada yg perlu disesali. I guess it's a part of growing up (which sucks). I couldn't stop thinking when did we really stop hangin out or stop connecting. It's really weird how I used to be at her place and talking on the phone with her all the time, and I mean, ALL THE TIME. Friendship, I learned eventually, like any relationship (boyfriend, parents, siblings, workmates, etc) always needs work. It takes effort. And sometimes, no matter how hard you try, mungkin emang jodohnya sampe situ aja.
Belom lama ini, ayahanda seorang sahabat kami di SMA wafat. Kami janjian bertemu di rumah duka dan pulangnya saya antar dia ke rumahnya. Saya mampir ke kamarnya yang dulu hampir tiap hari saya kunjungi. Tidak banyak berubah, bahkan aromanyapun masih sama. Hanya kini tampak lebih besar karena ia menjebol dinding kamar sebelahnya. Ia lalu menunjukkan frame foto sepanjang kurang lebih 2 meter yang isinya semua koleksi potongan foto teman2nya dari masa sekolah hingga kuliah. Foto saya tampak terpapampang banyak sekali disitu, menunjukkan betapa dekatnya kami dulu. Saya menangis dalam hati. Ingin rasanya mengulang masa-masa itu. Dan betapa keadaan kini telah berubah.
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